Monday, August 8th, 2005
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11:00 pm - Friends... Please.. Listen
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You guys are great. Your kind to me. You've taen me in unlike others. YOur truly great friends... I love you all.
How ever. I can't take it anymore. It's too much You have to stop using so much profanity. You guys may be my friends but, remember when you first met me? How I never swore? Well look at me! You've got me into that dirty habit! I hate it! It's so annoying! I'm trying to keep my standards (not swearing is one of them) and you make it harder. So please. Try and watch your tongue. It's ok if it slips but watch it.
One other thing that's really annoying me is how you guys talk about sex. You talk about it like it's no big thing. But's something that should be left within marriage. I know you all want to be virgins til marriage, but the more you talk, read, and think about it the more the lines between thoughts and reality blur. I've been quiet about it for the most part. But i can take it no more.
If I am a true friend of yours, you'll respect my standards and keep them while your around me. (for the most part) If you can not or will not, I will... I... Then I don't want to be your friend... This is hard for me to say, but I must say them. I can't live the way I am now.
McD
current mood:  indescribable
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Saturday, July 9th, 2005
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9:12 pm
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Today was a pretty decent day. I had fun blasting my syblings with nerf guns. and then i had fun playing video games and talking to friends.
That brings me to my depressing moment.
I called kyle today. It was weird. He sounded really tired. I expected him to be tired but i wasn't prepared. It was as if he was feeling hopeless... we talked about a couple things but he was silent most of the time. He scared me and i nearly cried.
Kyle's an active teen, has lots of friends, plays tons of sports, energetic, fun. But today it was like talking to him without his spirit. I love him like a brother. THe only thing that seperates us from brotherhood is blood. And now i get really worried at night.
Everything else is fine.
except i keep have nightmares lately. It's either about kyles death or my family dieing and I become orphan. usually i can push these things like this aside. i can do it but at night they come back to haunt me...
I think that being this worried is bad for my health.
Well maybe i can meet up with some friends and feel better...
Da Vid
current mood:  worried
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Friday, July 8th, 2005
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2:49 pm - Help...
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It's been a while since i've updated... Been gone most of the summer. Well. Lifes ok. Last week i got the news that my best friend kyle had gone threw his heart surgury fine. I was so relieved.... But.... then today i got bad news. His kindey failed and now he's back in the hospital. I'm scared as hell. And Now I'm crying again. And I can't help him at his time of need... it hurts....
McD
current mood:  depressed
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Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
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10:04 pm
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Math Exams tomorrow! JOY!... if i had my way i'd burn those tests. BURN THEM ALL! MWAHHHHAHHHA!
Sorry.. it's the sobe..
anyway. how do you change layouts?
Hi, who are you, why are you reading this, are you following me?
wow....
this is weird
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Thursday, May 5th, 2005
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8:46 pm
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I feel like typing my feeling. THey may sound stupid but please try to understand.
I'm starting to feel somewhat insulted, made fun of, and ect. certain people i know have been picking on me for to long. I've been hit multtiple times every day and everyone laughs when i flinch because I'm scared of being hit again. Scared of being the punching bag. ANd when I fight back. They get angry and try to hurt me worse.
I get things taken from and people play keep away. They think it's funnny but I get angry and hurt.
I get insulted for my religon. I get insulted for being short. I get picked on because I have great friends like Abbey, Benay, Ginny, and Max. It's not fair... not fair....
I've put up with this and much more. I've even been made fun of because i didn't want to watch glory because it was R rated. Then my closer friends keep me out of things that I would like to participate in. but because I did one thing that hurt them; however, they did more to hurt me. I know that these are alll simple things.... but they add up. And what's worse is that I'm worring about Kyle now. Then I sometimes get teased for because I'm good friends with Benay. They all say that I like her (it is true but I know it'll never be more than friends. Besides I'd rather have a good friendship, than a ruined friendship and someone to go to the dance with,) and tease me about the dance, and gifts i give, and because i have emotions. (and what hurts worse is that they're my closer friends.)
Sometimes I cry at night,(and i have hardly ever cried at night) and other times i want to cry it out in front of everybody but i don't. I know that it'll lead to more people laughing at me. I just don't understand why I have to be made fun of. Eveyone dislikes me. I feel alone. Unwanted. I'm made fun of for everything. I want to just cry it all out and have a friend there to comfort me. But non of them would want to comfort me....
Your Friend
McDougal... AKA.... David
P.S. Do not give me any sympathy over the interenet. It doesn't help anymore. i want you to tell me in person. That is if you want to be sympathetic. good night. I love you all
current mood: depressed
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Sunday, May 1st, 2005
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8:50 pm
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This message is for my friends. I'm losing it. Please help me. My best friend Kyle Singleton...
has to go in for heart surgury. He's always had heart problems since birth... But he only had surgury when he was a child. So i wasn't bothered to badly... But....
I try to keep my mind busy to forget about it... but every night the pain comes to haunt me.... I can hardly sleep.... It's always there driving away my sanity. It's always a fight to keep from crying in front of you guys.... Help me... Please.... tell all my friends.... And thank you.... for your kindess.
~McDougal AKA David
I love you all...
current mood:  numb
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Sunday, April 10th, 2005
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2:50 pm - STUPID FIREWALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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THIS D*** FIREWALL WON'T LET ME DO ANYTHING! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  angry
current music: hit the Floor
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Monday, April 4th, 2005
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4:50 pm - This Sucks
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My PC is being gay.... My Dad installed a thing so my Pc won't let me go to livejournal.... it only let's me update my journal.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr So people if you don't swear on my lj I might be able to override the system
Thanks...
current mood:  annoyed
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Sunday, April 3rd, 2005
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9:46 pm
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hello people..... i feel sooooooooooooooooooooooo bored..... Does anyone want to talk? I feel like dancing.... and drinking as much Sobe as I can..... Is anyone there..... Now I'm goint to write personal things to people...
Max- How's Katherine? Have you kissed her yet? jk... But really when are you going to? or are you a wimp? I shouldn't be saying that....
Ginny- How are you? What's your lj account again? I can't remeber if I put it in my friends.... I'll have to check... Well see ya!
Abbey- You #@$%! Why don't you post my comment s on the red moon house? Are you racist? Do you hate short people? Do you dislike my Asain self? Or is it because you of something else! TALK!
Benay- How are you? well i'm emailing you so nvm.... Anyway..... Um.... *thinking of convo* Wanta dance? jk.... I'll check my email now. See ya!
Lexie- I have no idea if you have an lj... Anyway how's Andrew? g2g so bye!
I love you all!
current mood:  satisfied
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Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
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8:21 pm
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wait ABBEY! How do you make things so there unseeable by you guys!?!?! QUick damn it!
current mood: uncomfortable
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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9:17 pm - Bored
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I'm sooooooooooooooooooooo bored. NO one to talk to and Torv's depressed. I can't even talk to Max! Where's Abbey? And Benay? and everyone else? Well at least Jazz band was fun. Trevor tried to be a bitch and hit me really hard in the rib. It felt like it cracked. But I don't think it weas... Well is anyone there. I want to dance with someone. g2 check Max's lj becaus i'm bored.
current mood: bored
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7:43 am
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Hello people from here to there! I would like to say welcome to another boring 9 weeks of the torture commonly know as school. I have to go eat breakfast..... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....
No PC time at all.........
current mood:  tired
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Monday, March 28th, 2005
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9:30 pm
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HELLO PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I said hello! Are you there!?!?! I have one question for you all!
Will you dance with me?
current mood:  crazy
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Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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3:58 pm - Bored
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I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
bored! well..... WAIT! It's RAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to dance in the rain! alone.... sigh. There's always a negative.
current mood: gloomy
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Friday, March 25th, 2005
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3:22 pm
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Max sucks at dancing! I'm better! anyway, Today I went dancing with Ginny! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to dance some more later! I just need to find someone to dance with!!
current mood: giggly
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3:21 pm - WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
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Hello people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just drank a Sobe!!!!!!!!! And Now I want to dance!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! Where is someone I can dance with? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... now i'm mad. No one to dance with.... grrrrrrrrrrrrr.....
Why is it always when I want to dance no ones around? This is gay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sigh.... sigh again.. sigh again and again..... I want to DANCE! Sigh.....
Well
I love you all!
No one to dance with..... *sob* *cry*
current mood: no one to dance with
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12:59 pm - Hungry....
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I need food.... so hungry..... I need some food.
if anyone wants to donate to the "save David from hunger fund" please donate now.
PLEASE NEED FUCKING FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood: hungry
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11:20 am
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7:33 am
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I feel like typing. Answer the following questions because I have to type them.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out about me?
13. Emotionally, what stands out about me?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? is 1 the highest or 10?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I lovable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
33. If I had won 4 billion dollars would that affect our friendship?
34. What is the worst thing you'd do to me?
35. If I was dieing in front of you (from bleeding) and there was no chance of survival what would you do?
36. If I asked you on a date would you go out with me? (this question isn't for boys)
37. Would you dance with me?
38. What is your favorite color?
39. WHen is your birthday?
40. When is my b-day?
41. AM I weird?
42. What do you think I am to you? (like a brother, bf, friend, long lost cousin, and ect. you get the drift.)
Answer all the questions or I will curse you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Preparing multiple curses.*
Anyway I want to dance.....
got to go
current mood:  weird
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Thursday, March 24th, 2005
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9:36 pm - WEIRD ME!
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I feel weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeird!
I like want to chug a Sobe and go dance with....... I'm not going there.
Well this is a great day. Robots is a funny movie! I also went bowling!
IT WAS WICKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway I feel like saying hello Eris and Tera! How's Disneyland?
I want to go dancing. Need a partner.
Dodgeball is really stupid movie.
Hey Lexie, hows Andr** doing?
I want to go dancing! Grrrrrr.....
Um lets see.....
Abbey are you on something? and you won't kill me!
I WANT TO DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Got to go
Ilove you all!
current mood:  pleased
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